The contest

Our apartment manager announced a contest at our apartments. Whoever decorates the best will win free rent in January! I'm excited about this. I emailed the homeschool group I'm in and several people gave me things to put up. One person gave me EIGHT boxes of lights that change. HE used 3500 on his house and these were extras. He GAVE them to me! How nice! Others gave me garland, wreaths and Icycle lights. I havent' put up the icycle lights yet but I'll post another pic when it is all done. I just thought I would post a pic of what I have so far. I'm so excited! No one else has done their apartment quite as big as we have so I'm hoping that we win! Please pray for favor. It would really help us to be able to have that extra 475 to spend on other things coming up. We have the rent to January but it's just going to be tight. This woul really help. So without further ado....here arethe pics. The first one is the daytime view. The second is the nightime view.

Sometimes the road get a little tough.....

But God is still faithful. I've had a lot on my mind recently. My husband and the ministry, our son that we miscarried at 18 weeks, and the fact that after my second child I did one of the biggest things that I will regret, I had a tubal ligation. Today, I wish I had never had it. I wish that I had just spoken up and said "NO I don't want it". But I was too scared of what everyone would think, I had been in so much pain and I had already told everyone that I was going to have it. That was the worse mistake of my life. Now I wish that I could have one more child. Actually I really would love to have six or seven but one would be a miracle. I have been so sad lately thinking about why I did that and the fact that I can't have them anymore. Unless the Lord intervenes, two is all I'll ever have. I ask everyone who reads this to pray for me. This is a hard thing to go through. I feel worthless as a woman. I feel that I have missed out on what all these other mothers have the privilege of having in their lives. I know that there is a reversal option out there but we can't afford it right now. So everyone pray for me that the Lord will help me to get through this rough time and that if the Lord will, that he would somehow choose to let me bear a child one more time, even amidst my ignorance and mistake. Thank you...I must go. I'm getting too emotional to be any good right now.

Jenn